Jana Vydrová

“My mother suffered a lot when I was sacked of the foreign trade business. I cried and it really hurt. Not only that they sacked me, but they refused to provide any reference for me.” The Interviewer, “How did they explain it to you?” – “Because of bourgeois background. This is what they told me. It was in 1961. They called me, saying they could not send me to Switzerland to the trade department. ‘We are sorry to inform you, comrade, that you also have to leave our foreign trade company completely.’”

“I was homesick a lot. I was homesick and often I listened to Dvořák’s cello concert since my father was a violoncellist. I wept and wept. I missed my home very much. But my mother proved of enormous support. But mainly freedom, it was freedom which really devoured us suddenly. The feeling that suddenly you are free. Even so I had my bad dreams, I still do, and these have their origin in the communist regime. Interviewer: ‘What were these dreams about? Did they have a scenario?’ – ‘Yes, they were about me not reaching a place I was going to, that somebody was hiding somewhere, waiting to kidnap me. Some people are more sensitive, some tougher, but I definitely belong into the first group. The system is to blame, namely the period after 1948 to 1965. The we were much upset by the year 1968.”

“What was interesting – I’ve been told this by my grandmother - that when they were opening the first tram line from Letna to the Exhibition Grounds in Prague, his colleague told him, ‘Boss, it won’t work, it will be a scandal.’ But my great grandfather told them in his authoritative voice, ‘Don’t be afraid, it’ll work.’ I know nothing about these things, I can just insert a cable into a socket, but I think that he believed in what he did. For me, he was a great person and a real Czech patriot, who did everything he could for the Czech nation, even when it was not to his benefit. Even Edison had a factory built for him in America. And it is interesting that Edison was born in the same year as my great grandfather. Whether this was a constellation in the sky, I don’t know. But he refused, saying he was a Czech.”

“Naturally, when we didn’t return, both my parents were interrogated. My father took it hard, they were interrogated at the Ruzyně prison, independently. First they took in my father, then my mother. My father later recalled that when my mother went it, she was in a conspicuously good mood. My father later said, ‘I was sitting there and suddenly your mum walks out of the door like a Valkyrie. They reproached my mother for me fleeing the country. But my mother turned the situation round, saying, ‘You won’t be telling me anything, I will say something to you, ‘You did everything so that I would lose my daughter. You sacked her from her job, you didn’t give her a chance. Everything you did to her returns… but not to you but to us.’ My father said my mother was in a fighting mood. I am certain that my father didn’t tell them this. He listened to them, they dominated, but my mum said, politely but truthfully, what I have just said.”